....original photography except where noted....


Sunday, October 09, 2011

nights of the red tide



in the distance,
a blood-red bloom
stains the gently heaving sea....

dark red,
like veinous blood --

yet this mass consumes,
like the consumers
whose effluvia feed it....

in so many ways
a toxic float --

forbidding, in its darkness,

foreboding, as it looms....

killing abalone and
sickening humans
who eat from its murk....



under clouded skies,
gazing,
in a
mood --

spirits can sink
into this blot,

this periodic blight....

and in the darkness
far beneath the vibrant world,

epic battles seethe --

the likes of which poets write
and bards sing....

whirlpools catch
weakened minds

in spirals of worry
regret
despair....

when the red tide comes,
no life vests can be found....

no dinghy waits topside,
no searchers line the shore....

deep
in the inky blackness --

a ballet of struggle....



yet a sea-magic gift awaits....

ah, just at twilight --

a strange iridescence
a phosphorescence?
a bioluminescence --

a trick of your eye, you think,
a wishing for light --

but ah, the rolling algae,
responding to friction

shout a spark as the crest
of a wave slaps down....

and within its roll, gathers a
blue-white glow....

how perfectly the universe has timed
the visitation of these crazy phytoplankton

to light up
the dark night
of your soul....

and if you can take a boat
father out to sea,
and dip in your hand --

you can trail stars from your fingertips....

oh
there is so much more than death
in darkness....

____________
©2011
Beth Anne Boardman


bioluminescent ocean

photo ©2008
thomas lozinski

http://www.flickr.com/photos/manasquantom/3296435532/

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

the empty bowl



one night
i sat, it seemed,
at the bottom of
a great empty bowl….

the ground spread flatly
away from me….

the vast deep
translucent lavender sky
melted backwards
into space
above me….

all around me
a great hollowness
rose up to meet infinity….

the birds held their breath
the breeze settled

even my thoughts
quietly filed out

to gaze blankly, instead,
at that sunset-infused expanse….

between me and the next star:
nothing….



the quiet deepened,
the sky darkened slowly….

space unveiled itself
before my watching eyes….

i sat
awe-touched

witnessing
this great celestial
rolling and turning --

from darkness
back to darkness --

an unstoppable cycle
linking observers
across the eons --

i sensed
a silent fertility
held by the dark….



against this great
unfolding dance,

the glow
of firestones arose….

solid black hills revealed
their graceful upwelling curves
in silhouette….

trees and nightbirds
issued soft murmurings, rustlings,
quiet calls –-

wet earth exhaled
a freshly greened scent --

the empty bowl
rapidly filled

with
mystery
upon mystery….



behind me
i heard a voice say:

today i held the eagle feather
up to the sky….

i showed it to the east,
to the west,
the north
and the south…..


the voice faded,
and as the firelight
played,
(a tiny star)

i gave thanks

for eagle feathers
for sky
and for the
empty
fertile
dark….

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________
©2011
Beth Anne Boardman

Saturday, August 06, 2011

a waltz of owls




we walk in an infinite world --

at any moment
a thousand
golden ghosts

swirl
around us....



summers ago,
in my father's home,
sifting through the legacies
of my ancestors....

making off with sepia portraits
long coveted
long denied....

tossing away sticky
space-age plastics
from the fifties....

marveling at the aesthetics
of a curious,
yellow-and-white
art-deco
cocktail shaker....

the longings
and the dreams
of my ancestors
swept over me --

awash this incapable form....



oh grandmothers....
mother....

what would you have me do?

grandfathers,
father,

old ones....

what is it you want from
my wild and bounded life?



i drove away,
my u-haul packed with
viscous treasures....

simultaneously
relief and exhaustion
made themselves known....

tears and i poured
together
over the
state line....

at that moment,
i swear --

i felt the spirits of my grandmothers
fly to join me....

their forms
streamed off of my shoulders
like wings

you have done the sacred work
daughter....

all is well --
yes, horrific!

but all is well....

work....
love....
play....

this is your sacred waltz....




i am happy the owls own the night --
their quiet announcements shake me....

they are my secret call to order....

to inventory my dreams....
and requisition grace....

and remember
that i dance

with golden ghosts....


____________________
©2011
beth anne boardman

Monday, July 04, 2011

starlight and capes



~for joyce~

once
a white-haired man told me
to imagine
that
at any time of day
starlight showers down
over my head
like invisible
love....

(because we know,
he said,
even though sunlight
outshines the stars --
nevertheless
they twinkle on
in disguise
and behind....
)



some mornings
i swing despair on
like a cape,
i realize,
or a robe....

sometimes it is the tablecloth i sit down to --

sometimes
resolutely
i hang it back
in the closet
with the old clothes --

the ones
i really need
to give away....

i take out hope
shake the dust out of its folds
and try it on
awkwardly....



right now,
it seems,
neither one fits!

so i take them both off, and
they lie in small heaps on the floor --

i stare at them,
mystified....

how do you live without one
or the other?

yesterday
in the blazing heat
a (wise) young man said:

true peace happens
when you give up
both hope
and despair....




tonight
i walk out into the quiet
warm air --

the fireworks
have blown themselves out....

the revelers
have gone indoors....

and up on the hillside,
out from under the trees --
i hold my skirt with both hands
like a basin

for catching stars....


______________
©2011
beth anne boardman

Monday, June 06, 2011

feather rain




some wounds
would take the whole earth
to heal....

last night
rain danced softly,
like feathers

through my open window....

delicate drops stirred still air,
drawing my attention
to their sweet secrets....

quietly,
like shimmers
through a web,

i heard whispers
of comfort,
reassurance....

i remembered how once
i had heard
the great one
speaking to me
through desert rocks....

i had leaned my tired head
against their warmth--

they radiated a whole day's worth
of desert sun
into my fearful heart....

listen:
i have been here since the beginning.
i've seen everything there is to see.
you are no worse
and no better
than anyone....
keep going....


some wounds we carry our whole lives,
like amputations....

what was torn out
exists only in the other world....
in ashes,
in dream....

i listen and remember--
this soft gentle rain
falls on everyone,
everyone....

if i turn my face up to it
and stay very quiet
and listen very deeply,
i can feel love
seeping right down into
this suffering heart....

everyone
everyone
is worthy of this
deep and private love....


________________
©2011
beth anne boardman

Monday, May 23, 2011

reconciling grey



sometimes all the beauty
in the world

seems to vanish
in one whoosh....

death bookends life

fate turns on its dime

and rugs shift
under our feet....

poems, words, colors, disappear
metaphor leaves....

shall we hope for no more happiness
if gifts come
on the sharp edge
of a knife?



perhaps i have fought the grey too long....
perhaps grey needs to be my new favorite color....

do i lose color?
do i merely note loss?

do i thank god for
this opportunity to
find myself alone in the dark?

to reach out to something
more powerful than my own humanity?

i don't know:

everything i think i know
is really everything i can't ever understand....



this morning

i stood on my front steps
and this foreign wind
played in my hair,

ran all around my face
and made me dizzy

birds sang confusingly
of nests and mates
and territories....

the sun shone strangely
springlike

and i brought in the laundry....



_____________
© 2011
beth anne boardman

Monday, May 02, 2011

einstein and rumi are laughing




one day
i saw myself through another's eyes....

....and paris lay before me....

sparkling like a thousand diamonds
alive with a thousand breaths

vibrant with history
shaped by love, and death, and joy....

oh, this world, this world....

how can every day not be a celebration of the
great rite of trees?

of the amazing birth of new grass?

of babies, of passion,
of death and tears?

we are alive at a wondrous time --

learning to see
through mists of illusion
into the universe
of the mere twenty amino acids we all share....

science and love are merging....

einstein and rumi are laughing....

that we can even entertain the thought
that we are anything other
than diamonds....


______________
©2011
beth anne boardman