between endings and beginnings (i am wondering....)

i am wondering, i must say, where laughter went
and will it come again…..

because some things strike so deeply into the heart,
into the spirit,
that one is changed forever….
forever….

maybe it’s just time that is needed….

but i feel right now that my life,
along with yours….
is over….

i am on my last chapter….
and i will write it with poetry
and longing
and love

and yes, i will dance

and try to stay lively
until the laughter comes back again….

but for now life is teaching me its dark ways again,
and i sit in the grayness and listen….
schooled in humanity
supported by grace
accompanied by spirits who love me
and sit by me without judgment…..

this is a time of hanging….

between endings
and beginnings….

a time to perfect the art of not knowing,
of listening…..
of being….
of throwing my imagination around
in a whole new, completely
unfamiliar, absolutely undreamed of way….

of becoming comfortable in this chrysalis again…..

but golden light lurks
around the corner, i know….
if i can just wait

just wait....



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beth anne boardman